Conversing with the Past

I talked to you again today. It'd been a while since we had, at least in that way. Heh....I laugh to myself thinking about the reason why I was spurred to talk to you. An opening revealed itself that will never have my mark left in it. "He bends and he breaks...he exhales..."

This longing on my chest yet it makes me happy to know that it's there. To know I'm still capable of such a thing makes it so much easier to keep looking. You motivate me without knowing it. I know we have hardly any history but I've been with you this whole time.

......time will tell.

Moving Through

Stuck...not stuck, residing in a constant place looking for a reason to move. It lies as I do waiting for the other to move first but it's hard to choose. It's not hard to choose, I'm merely chained in the world I've created. Doorways are made and opened. To be strong enough to move through those doorways is all I need.

I am but there in lies a lack of reason to exert that strength that will allow me to move. Actively seeking a motive but only going through the motions. That reason is out there, must continue on to search and find it.

Toiling away in my dreams.

State of Mind as of Late

Hmmmmmmmm.......