I'm amazed that I could have such a revelation about things now at this point in time. The One from the Past turned out to be a lot more than I expected in the best way possible. The feeling I have with her is much different from that of the One that Got Away. Very different. And I'm glad it is.
After pining away for so long trying to get her, the One that Got Away, I managed to start something with her. It was an amazing and almost insane feeling as my previous posts would confess. The euphoria that was felt after she said 'yes' was mind-numbingly strong. I don't feel that with the One from the Past...yet. I believe that because I worked so hard to try and get someone that was trying not to get got it turned into a game that I won. I had accomplished the feat I'd been working at for so long, her specifically. Looking back I realize that she wasn't ready for a relationship. She wanted to go out and live life to the fullest, which I can understand and encourage, however she didn't want to have to worry about someone else while she did. I was prepared to join her on her quest to carpe diem but she wouldn't have me. Unfortunate but true. What's sadder is that I don't think she understood that. Or if she did she chose to ignore it. I just wish she would have told me outright is all. After all the talk about maturity...I should have seen that one coming.
The new feeling however is different in that it's a growing feeling. I can already tell. There isn't an overwhelming sense of electricity but more like a hum or energy. It's there but just needs the proper conduit to be built so it might be fully utilized. I like this feeling much more than the other one. This feels grounded, understanding, and comprehensive; it understands. Despite the challenges we face ahead of us we'll do what we can to make things work, we like each other too much not to at least put up some form of a fight. I'm looking forward to where this leads. We've already done so much yet there's plenty more to discover with one another. It's refreshing.
.......interesting experience dead ahead.
